The Purpose

So I have relocated back to Washington DC... woot-woot. My job is going as well as can be expected (we will just leave it there). I have stabilized my environment... Visited with family, met up with friends, met new friends. School is ramping up, soon to be over... woot-woot again...
I have learned allot about myself in the 3 years and 6 months that i have been in hiatus.
One thing i've learned is...

I really do have a personal relationship with God, it is a relationship that consist of discipline, accountability, unconditional love, support and encouragement.. Who could ask for anything more..


Since i have been back, I've had the urge to follow a long lived dream.. So the other day,with the support of my family and a good friend.. i did it.. I did something that made me so nervous, but it was a huge step towards a loooong lived goal. I had positive feedback, and once i get the ultimate feedback, good or bad.. i will share the dream with you.. I know this is my life purpose.. I just know it is.. this particular thing, has been with me since i was a teen.

What is your life purpose?? have you fulfilled it??

Life is good, especially when you have the opportunity each day to wake up and do it all over again. Tomorrow is always coming.. What are you going to do?

Please check this song out.. its Awesome!
Bittersweet symphony: Richard Ashcroft (ex: Verve) & Coldplay Lyrics below..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tPGTdDohGl4&feature=related

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this lifeTry to make ends meetYou're a slave to money then you dieI'll take you down the only road I've ever been downYou know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet yeah, No change, I can changeI can change, I can changeBut I'm here in my moldI am here in my moldBut I'm a million different people from one day to the nextI can't change my moldNo, no, no, no, noWell I never prayBut tonight I'm on my knees yeahI need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeahI let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free nowBut the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me nowNo change, I can changeI can change, I can changeBut I'm here in my moldI am here in my moldAnd I'm a million different peoplefrom one day to the nextI can't change my moldNo, no, no, no, noI can't changeI can't change'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this lifeTry to make ends meetTry to find some money then you dieI'll take you down the only road I've ever been downYou know the one that takes you to the places where all the things meet yeah You know I can change, I can changeI can change, I can changeBut I'm here in my moldI am here in my moldAnd I'm a million different peoplefrom one day to the nextI can't change my moldNo, no, no, no, noI can't change my moldno, no, no, no, no,I can't changeCan't change my body,no, no, noI'll take you down the only road I've ever been downI'll take you down the only road I've ever been downBeen downEver been downEver been downEver been downEver been downHave you ever been down?Have you've ever been down?

The Prescription

Yesterday I went to visit yet another doctor, and left with a prescription... I later went to the pharmacy. While standing in the drop off line.. i notice that there were allot of older people waiting in line to fill prescriptions, not unusual, right? I over heard the pharmacist tell an older lady how much her prescription would be the lady (astonished) said " I cannot afford that!" I paid it no attention and assumed they would work things out.. so i started reading twitter posts.. trying to ignore the situation in front of me..

It was now my turn... I handed the Pharmacist my Prescription paper:
Pharmacist: "Spell your name"
Rosslyn: isn't it written on the paper "R-o-s-s-l-y-n"
Pharmacist: "Your Address"
Rosslyn: I told her
Pharmacist: "Your number"
Rosslyn: I told her
Pharmacist: "Do you have your insurance card"
Rosslyn: I handed it over
Pharmacist: (entered information into the system) "Ummmmmm (no lie) this card has expired (handing it back to me) and if i call them its going to take some time (seriously) and there is a long line.. If you were going to pay for the prescription without insurance its $50.00 bucks"
Rosslyn: I looked behind me.. she wasn't lying "i have been using that card for the past two weeks .." ($50.00 bucks?? WHAT! I'm not paying $50.00)
Pharmacist: "I don't know what to tell you.. next. "
Rosslyn: (I'm being dismissed?) leaving with my head down..
I went home and retrieved the new card that was sent to me (I had forgotten I had a new card, but it had the same Grp and Mem numbers).. and returned back to the Pharmacy..

New Pharmacist: "May i help you... "
Rosslyn: "I was here a few minutes ago, and left the prescription..."
New Pharmacist: cutting me off "Name"
Rosslyn: "Rosslyn Ruffin"
New Pharmacist: "Ok, here it is... "
Rosslyn: (handed her the new card)
New Pharmacist: types in the information "you aren't covered for prescriptions."
Rosslyn: "that has to be a mistake."
New Pharmacist: "Nope.. (no lie).. that's was it says right here..." (pointing at the screen, that i can't see)
Rosslyn: "Please try again..."
New Pharmacist: "I don't think this covers your prescriptions, soooooo..
Rosslyn: "Sooooo.. that has to be a mistake.. (getting VERY angry now... ) Ill just pay the $50.00 bucks, because it was prescribed to me, which means i need it .. so Ill just pay. "
New Pharmacist: "Ok.. have it your way, you can go stand in the pickup line. Next."
Rosslyn: angrily walk to the pickup line. fuming I call my insurance carrier, immediately to explain the situation. They tell me, your prescription is now handled by someone else.. (this my fault for NOT paying close attention during open season, where is Tia when i need her) She transfers me to the provider, who gives me the new mem and group id numbers.. I walk back over the the drop off window...
Same New Pharmacist: who is talking to an older gentleman:Sir, you can pick your prescription up in 2 hours.."
Older Gentleman: reaching for his wallet
Same New Pharmacist: "Your prescription will be ready in two hours you can pay at that time."
Older Gentleman: still reaching for his wallet
Same New Pharmacist: (louder) "Sir, your prescription will not be ready for two hours.. 8pm. At that time you can pay.. you don't pay in advance here."
Older Gentleman: "Ok.. Thank you.. "
Same New Pharmacist: rolling her eyes.. no lie
Rosslyn: "you were right, my carrier for prescriptions has changed."
Same New Pharmacist: "I know i was right..."she puts the information into the system, I pop up.. "you can go to the pickup line."
$11.00 bucks...
The person in line behind me, in the pickup line.. was the woman who couldn't afford her prescriptions.. she had a family member meet her with additional money..

I share this to say.. I learned that my priorities so off, I pay for my medical coverage via my job which is a blessing these days just to have one.. and not a privilege.. there are so many people who can no longer afford it.. Now i would without hesitation pay $50.00 or more for a pair of shoes, clothing, bags etc... No problem!! But my prescription, i complained and made sure to obtained the necessary information to discount it.

I felt like a heel... especially when i heard the woman who couldn't afford her meds, explaining to the family member what happened.

People with jobs and health coverage are blessed.. and should thank God for it..