The Prescription

Yesterday I went to visit yet another doctor, and left with a prescription... I later went to the pharmacy. While standing in the drop off line.. i notice that there were allot of older people waiting in line to fill prescriptions, not unusual, right? I over heard the pharmacist tell an older lady how much her prescription would be the lady (astonished) said " I cannot afford that!" I paid it no attention and assumed they would work things out.. so i started reading twitter posts.. trying to ignore the situation in front of me..

It was now my turn... I handed the Pharmacist my Prescription paper:
Pharmacist: "Spell your name"
Rosslyn: isn't it written on the paper "R-o-s-s-l-y-n"
Pharmacist: "Your Address"
Rosslyn: I told her
Pharmacist: "Your number"
Rosslyn: I told her
Pharmacist: "Do you have your insurance card"
Rosslyn: I handed it over
Pharmacist: (entered information into the system) "Ummmmmm (no lie) this card has expired (handing it back to me) and if i call them its going to take some time (seriously) and there is a long line.. If you were going to pay for the prescription without insurance its $50.00 bucks"
Rosslyn: I looked behind me.. she wasn't lying "i have been using that card for the past two weeks .." ($50.00 bucks?? WHAT! I'm not paying $50.00)
Pharmacist: "I don't know what to tell you.. next. "
Rosslyn: (I'm being dismissed?) leaving with my head down..
I went home and retrieved the new card that was sent to me (I had forgotten I had a new card, but it had the same Grp and Mem numbers).. and returned back to the Pharmacy..

New Pharmacist: "May i help you... "
Rosslyn: "I was here a few minutes ago, and left the prescription..."
New Pharmacist: cutting me off "Name"
Rosslyn: "Rosslyn Ruffin"
New Pharmacist: "Ok, here it is... "
Rosslyn: (handed her the new card)
New Pharmacist: types in the information "you aren't covered for prescriptions."
Rosslyn: "that has to be a mistake."
New Pharmacist: "Nope.. (no lie).. that's was it says right here..." (pointing at the screen, that i can't see)
Rosslyn: "Please try again..."
New Pharmacist: "I don't think this covers your prescriptions, soooooo..
Rosslyn: "Sooooo.. that has to be a mistake.. (getting VERY angry now... ) Ill just pay the $50.00 bucks, because it was prescribed to me, which means i need it .. so Ill just pay. "
New Pharmacist: "Ok.. have it your way, you can go stand in the pickup line. Next."
Rosslyn: angrily walk to the pickup line. fuming I call my insurance carrier, immediately to explain the situation. They tell me, your prescription is now handled by someone else.. (this my fault for NOT paying close attention during open season, where is Tia when i need her) She transfers me to the provider, who gives me the new mem and group id numbers.. I walk back over the the drop off window...
Same New Pharmacist: who is talking to an older gentleman:Sir, you can pick your prescription up in 2 hours.."
Older Gentleman: reaching for his wallet
Same New Pharmacist: "Your prescription will be ready in two hours you can pay at that time."
Older Gentleman: still reaching for his wallet
Same New Pharmacist: (louder) "Sir, your prescription will not be ready for two hours.. 8pm. At that time you can pay.. you don't pay in advance here."
Older Gentleman: "Ok.. Thank you.. "
Same New Pharmacist: rolling her eyes.. no lie
Rosslyn: "you were right, my carrier for prescriptions has changed."
Same New Pharmacist: "I know i was right..."she puts the information into the system, I pop up.. "you can go to the pickup line."
$11.00 bucks...
The person in line behind me, in the pickup line.. was the woman who couldn't afford her prescriptions.. she had a family member meet her with additional money..

I share this to say.. I learned that my priorities so off, I pay for my medical coverage via my job which is a blessing these days just to have one.. and not a privilege.. there are so many people who can no longer afford it.. Now i would without hesitation pay $50.00 or more for a pair of shoes, clothing, bags etc... No problem!! But my prescription, i complained and made sure to obtained the necessary information to discount it.

I felt like a heel... especially when i heard the woman who couldn't afford her meds, explaining to the family member what happened.

People with jobs and health coverage are blessed.. and should thank God for it..

I have learned to keep my desires, dreams and wishes to those who I KNOW support me. This way no one can prey on them. But i hate it, i listen to people, i support others and i can absolutely tell when someone has just discounted me.

i often wonder how successful people get where they are. They must believe in themselves. But most importantly is having someone who believes in you too. Encouragement and proper guidance, no, not proper but productive guidance is key. having someone who agrees with your every decision, even when you are wrong, or off the designated mark is not productive. however, that is what we gravitate towards. If we aren't preparing ourselves properly to take our place in life, then we are setting ourselves up for failures.

I once heard a very successful musician state "my father took us to try out for a group, in the middle of the performance, he stopped the try-out. Apologized to the judges and said they aren't ready. And we left. he did that several times, until we got it right." - Guess who.

Its never comfortable to be criticized, however if our personal support group won't do it.. the world will. So lets not push away the persons who are providing constructive criticism, in a loving way. Lets learn to listen to the content of the information provided and grow from it.

I feel that people are successful from guidance and support. Lets support each other.

what do you think?

Apprehension

Apprehension = suspicion or fear.

I would love to encourage people to act on their fear, and follow the whisper. That's right God whispers his wishes for your life, when you don't listen or follow, it turns into a gut feeling. and when you ignore the gut feeling, you leave no other choice but to follow the advice of others.. so now you have ignored God and consulted people.. Take stock.. and walk into your fears, I promise you.. you will end up where God needs you to be. who doesn't want that?

Listen to the whisper follow the path. follow the dream. Follow the Lord. AMEN!


STAY ON PURPOSE! the Lord needs you!

What is your purpose?

Feel good!

Every now and then women feel the need to have a boost of femininity.. just to feel good about yourself no matter what is going on in your life. No matter how sick you are. If your heart is broken. If you have no time for yourself. To busy with the kids. Busy climbing the corporate ladder. You just want to feel like the most feminine of women?? just sexy? you just want to have that swagger that you have it going on??

I will suggest the following:
Love yourself, no matter what..

But, please by all means, check out the Beyonce 'I am yours' CD/DVD, the DVD being the most inspirational. It will make you feel awesome. In addition, there is a B-day DVD with all the videos made with the album..

Those are two things that make me feel feminine as hell.

What makes you feel sexy????

You should give yourself a sexy name... I can't think of one for myself.. What's yours.

LUPUS!

Lupus is a chronic, autoimmune disease that can damage any part of the body (skin, joints, and/or organs inside the body). Chronic means that the signs and symptoms tend to last longer than six weeks and often for many years. In lupus, something goes wrong with your immune system, which is the part of the body that fights off viruses, bacteria, and germs ("foreign invaders," like the flu). Normally our immune system produces proteins called antibodies that protect the body from these invaders. Autoimmune means your immune system cannot tell the difference between these foreign invaders and your body’s healthy tissues ("auto" means "self") and creates autoantibodies that attack and destroy healthy tissue. These autoantibodies cause inflammation, pain, and damage in various parts of the body.

· Lupus is also a disease of flares (the symptoms worsen and you feel ill) and remissions (the symptoms improve and you feel better). Lupus can range from mild to life-threatening and should always be treated by a doctor. With good medical care, most people with lupus can lead a full life.

· Lupus is not contagious, not even through sexual contact. You cannot "catch" lupus from someone or "give" lupus to someone.

· Lupus is not like or related to cancer. Cancer is a condition of malignant, abnormal tissues that grow rapidly and spread into surrounding tissues. Lupus is an autoimmune disease, as described above.

· Lupus is not like or related to HIV (Human Immune Deficiency Virus) or AIDS (Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome). In HIV or AIDS the immune system is underactive; in lupus, the immune system is overactive.

· Our research estimates that at least 1.5 million Americans have lupus. The actual number may be higher; however, there have been no large-scale studies to show the actual number of people in the U.S. living with lupus.

· It is believed that 5 million people throughout the world have a form of lupus.

· Lupus strikes mostly women of childbearing age (15-44). However, men, children, and teenagers develop lupus, too.

· Women of color are 2-3 times more likely to develop lupus.

· People of all races and ethnic groups can develop lupus.

· More than 16,000 new cases of lupus are reported annually across the country